Nutter Butters Make Me Nauseous (and other adult revelations)

Things are different as you grow up. Likes and dislikes change, how you view the world changes, as well as most everything else. In my opinion, everyone should always maintain a healthy amount of childishness. Who says you can’t have brownies in the shapes of stars or that sprinkles are just for kids?

With that said, I am happy to no longer be an adolescent. I’m perfectly content with the age that I currently am. Every once in a while, I will revisit various favorites from my childhood only to come to a startling conclusion: my said former favorite is horrendous. What the hell was I thinking? I don’t care how young  I was, how did I find that appealing? Sometimes, bringing up things from the past isn’t nostalgic, it’s traumatizing. I am now referring to these as things I liked in my past life. I refuse to believe that I am the same person as my elementary-school-aged self.

On the other hand, things that I once despised turned out to be pretty good after all! Gaining a few years can introduce you to some really awesome things. I guess brain development really does open some pretty cool doors.

In the spirit of an incident involving a particular manufactured cookie, I thought about some food opinions I consider to be pretty adult:

Nutter Butters Make Me Nauseous (and other adult revelations)

1. Nutter Butters are disgusting. I used to love those peanut-shaped cookies. When I got them in my lunch, it was a special occasion. The other day, I discovered some mini Nutter Butters in the pantry that my dad had brought home. “I used to love these!” I thought. “I’m sure they still taste good,” my delusional self continued. So I sat on the couch and opened the bag. It was the first time I had tried one in probably eight years. Those precious treats from my childhood had somehow turned into peanut butter demons. Seriously, what do they put in those?! I don’t know if the recipe has been changed or if my palate was actually that underdeveloped. Either way, I am ashamed to say that I ever liked the abominable, sickeningly sweet, artificial peanut devil cookies.

2. Escargot is wonderful. I remember watching my mother eat it in my developmental years and always responding with, “Ewwwwww!” Now, I can truly appreciate this wonderful French delicacy. I was actually tricked into trying them. My mom had made a pasta topped with “special mushrooms.” Looking back, I really should have inquired more about these mushrooms. At this point in my life, if anyone says they put something “special” in my food, I’m going to assume its drugged and run away. Anyways, I tried these “mushrooms” and loved them. Shortly after I finished my meal, my father broke the news to me. I was hysterical. I’m not really big on being deceived. I was able to get over it, however, when I started craving Escargot the next day. Just as a personal preference, I only eat escargot imported from France. I have an uncle that is from France, so he always brings a ton home whenever he visits. Because my family appears to love me, they share! Nowadays, it is not uncommon for my brother and I to share a whole bunch of escargot with butter, garlic and herbs for dinner. Mmmmm.

3. American cheese is not real cheese. Remember that Kraft commercial that said, “a country is only as good as its cheese?” If that were found to be true, we are the most appalling country on the planet. When I went to McDonald’s as a kid, I always ordered a cheeseburger. I thought they were fantastic! Now, I’m all about the good stuff. Goat cheese or bust. There is no way I will ever revert to putting that artificial, flimsy, faux-cheese on anything I eat. There are so many good cheeses in this world! Eat those instead! I don’t know about you, but I think a grilled cheese with gouda or a serving of baked brie sounds a hell of a lot better than “processed cheese squares.”

4. There is more to pizza than pepperoni. Most kids order the standard cheese or one-topping pizza. Why would you want to put anything on there? Because it’s delicious, that’s why. Sometimes, I even get pizza with salad on top. Oh, the horror! Pizza is awesome with pesto, spinach, chicken, peppers, pineapple, and so much more. I don’t think I’ve ordered a plain pizza in years. My current favorite is called a Calypso pizza, which I get at my local pizzeria. It has Canadian bacon, pineapple, chicken, bell peppers, onion, and smoked bacon. It sounds a little weird, but the combination is so, so good. Another favorite of mine is pretty much anything with goat cheese.

Has your taste in food changed over the years? What do you like now that you didn’t before? Let me know in the comment section!

xx Courtney

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My Favorite Off-Air Shows

I like to become obsessive over shows that haven’t aired a new episode in years. There isn’t a support group for it, so I’m just going to believe its healthy and normal.

Here are my favorites:

1. Buffy the Vampire Slayer

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If you haven’t seen this show, you should. The writing is witty and Buffy kicks ass! Seven seasons aired, as well as a spin-off show “Angel.” It is a show that appeals to most everyone. There’s fighting, friendship, comedy, and normal, human problems. The title makes it pretty obvious that there is going to be some death involved, but it’s not gory. Joss Whedon made the show masterfully violent. She’s fighting evil without every scene revolving around her battle skills. Also, a study suggests that watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer could make men less sexist. Who said television had no purpose? Re-runs air occasionally on FX.

2. Pushing Daisies

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This is one of the most charming shows I have ever seen. I have watched every episode multiple times and I still cry during the finale. No joke. It aired two seasons and was cancelled mostly due to the writer’s strike in 2008. The basic premise of the show is that the main character, Ned, is a pie shop owner who can bring people back to life simply by touching them. However, if the person remains alive for more than one minute, someone else dies. It sounds morbid, and it is, but the show is simply spectacular. I suppose it does fall into the crime and mystery category, but it is nothing like your typical, run-of-the-mill crime scene show. Pushing Daisies is light and cheery. Plus, the love story of Ned and Chuck (his childhood crush that he brought back to life), is perhaps one of the most underrated, beautiful love stories of all time. Re-runs are shown sometimes on Chiller.

3. Lizzie McGuire

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Ahh, the Disney Channel glory days. This was my favorite show when I was younger. I use the word obsession with its full definition in mind. If Lizzie McGuire was on TV, I watched it. If a shirt had Lizzie McGuire on it, I bought it. The soundtracks? Yep, have those too. I still find the show relevant. It dealt with real issues about growing up and being in school. A part of me still wants to grow up to be Lizzie McGuire. Besides, basically all the Disney Channel shows from when I was a kid are immensely better than what is on now. Phil of the Future and Kim Possible? Awesome! Dog With a Blog? No. No. No. No….No.

4. The Simple Life

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This is definitely a guilty pleasure of mine. I still find this reality TV gold to be totally enjoyable. My mother had me watch when I was younger. I distinctly remember her saying, “If you ever act like Paris Hilton, I will never stop crying.” Solid advice there, Mom. There were so many wonderfully tragic moments throughout the series. I especially love the episode where Paris and Nicole worked at Sonic. Their choice of wording for the sign was comical. Nicole was, without a doubt, my favorite. I found her to be much more interesting than her ditzy counterpart. Because of this show, I am completely determined to name my next dogs Honey Child and Foxy Cleopatra.

5. United States of Tara

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I absolutely love this show. Toni Collette was simply spectacular in her role as Tara, as well as a few others. Tara is a woman with Disassociative Identity Disorder, formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder. She has many “alters” including a 50’s housewife, rebellious teenager, and redneck man. My personal favorite is Gimme, an unidentified animal who wears a red poncho and once peed on Tara’s father. It was hilarious. She struggles with being a wife and mother to her two children, Kate and Marhsall. Her life is literally overtaken by other people. Her alters usually appear when she is under stress, as DID is a rare and extreme coping mechanism. The bottom line is that this show is both genius and wildly entertaining. I laugh during every episode.

What are your favorite off-air shows? Have you ever watched the ones I like? Let me know in the comment section.

xx Courtney

The Psychology of Favorites

I have trouble committing to my favorite things. When someone asks me which food I love the most or the color I couldn’t live without, I have always had trouble answering.

Some psychologists believe that people who cannot decide on their favorite things have at least one of a few issues:

  1. This is the beginning stage of commitment issues. If you can’t commit to something as small as a  song, you couldn’t possibly commit to a person.
  2. You are unfulfilled. You subconsciously feel that you do not have enough life experience to make a decision.
  3. You are emotionally underdeveloped, therefore incapable of syncing an internal response with an external thing.
  4. You are a control freak. Because you have not listened to every song or tried every type of pasta, you feel as though any answer you gave would be either dishonest or without indisputable evidence.
"So, you can't decide if your favorite food is pizza. How do you feel about that?"

“So, you can’t decide if your favorite food is pizza. How do you feel about that?”

Perhaps if you are having problems with one of the above things, indecision is a symptom. I’m not saying that these psychologists are wrong, but I think one more reason should be added to the list:

  1. You are human! You are allowed to change your mind! If this week your movie of choice is Moulin Rouge, but then you see Frozen and decide its better, who says you can’t give a new answer?! Your taste buds change all the time, why can’t your choices change with it?

For most, I don’t think this is an “issue.” I think this is normal! If you never changed your mind, your life would be very boring. When I was younger, I loved American cheese and struggled with any color that wasn’t pink. If my likes and dislikes never strayed from a list I developed at age three, that should be considered emotionally underdeveloped. Amiright?

Concluding my rant, I will continue to change my mind. If I want to wear leather today and go with all floral and lace tomorrow, I will! By the week, by the day, I will alter my favorites to suit whoever I decide to be.

Who knows? Maybe I'll decide my favorite thing to do is dress up like an ice cream cone and chase unsuspecting adults in parking lots. I DO WHAT I WANT! Source:

Who knows? Maybe I’ll decide my favorite thing to do is dress up like an ice cream cone and chase unsuspecting adults in parking lots. I DO WHAT I WANT!


So whenever someone asks me about my favorite things, I have learned to respond with, “It depends on the day.”


xx Courtney

P.S. I do not know where the psychology information officially came from. I read about it while I was taking a psychology course. The information provided was repeated through my mostly reliable memory!

“I’m Very Pleased and Scared To Be Here.”

In the words of Penny Pingleton from Hairspray, “I’m very pleased and scared to be here.”

I am a bit panicked to be writing my first post. I think I have valid reason to be nervous, but my anxiety is probably making me unnecessarily fearful. On the other hand, I’m thrilled to be starting this new chapter! I have absolutely no experience in blogging, but a great passion for writing and life itself. I will do my best to spell things correctly and use decent grammar.

I’m Courtney. I am currently living in a small town in New Mexico, where I have been for about three years now. Before then, I was raised in Viva Las Vegas! I have no plans to stay here, as this town just isn’t me. My dreams have always been bigger than my body!

I have a chronic pain illness that I was diagnosed with just after my fifteenth birthday. Its been a struggle, but I am getting better. You can read more about it in the “About” section of my blog.

My illness, for a long time, took the passion out of my life. I was not motivated to do much of anything. Recently, I have been getting my happy back. I have a better plan for better living. My life only goes up from here!

My goal is that through this blog, someone else can find something to relate to. I, like everyone else, am not perfect. I make mistakes and say the wrong thing. Saying the wrong thing is often “my thing.” It took me a while to understand that its okay to mess up. A lot of these mess-ups have made me a better person in the long run. In the moment, however, I usually felt like abandoning all civilization and living in the woods where I can’t embarrass myself. Very rational.

As I stated in my about page, I hope my writing brings inspiration, information and a few laughs!

If you have any suggestions or comments for me, I would love to hear from you. I am best reached by email at

I hope this blog brings as much happiness to you as it does me. Thank you for reading!

xx Courtney